Monday of the Second Week of Lent

March 17, 2003

Last week we focused on "holiness formation" -- growing awareness of our own imperfections. No we're not alright but that's alright unless we live in denial. For without imperfection we have no need and no ability to receive forgiveness and mercy, and without receiving we cannot share; we cannot give mercy which is the very essence of being like god--being holy.

To acknowledge that we are sinners does nothing to diminish our dignity as human beings or as Christians. It was precisely for sinners that Jesus comes to give healing.

All of us have to struggle at times when others don't reciprocate our enthusiasm, our generous attitudes. We have to choose not to let others discourage us. We are called to be who we are, our best selves, and not let others' values determine our own.

Perhaps the person we most need to be gentle with is our self. We should never get irritable with ourselves because of our imperfections. It is reasonable to be displeased and/or sorry when we commit faults, but not be fretful or spiteful.

When we make the mistake of being angry at ourselves for being angry, vexed because we have been vexed--these remedies do not remove the feeling causing us harm. Instead they prepare for an even more intense reaction on the next occasion.

All this irritation within us stirs up pride from an ability to accept imperfection; pride that makes us think that we can make ourselves like God.

If on the other hand we regard our faults with calm, collected, and firm displeasure, we can correct ourselves by a quiet persevering repentance. When we choose to walk in the belief that God's generosity will never be outdone, it’s amazing what blessings will eventually come our way. As Jesus says in today's gospel: “This and much more will be given to you--so rise and do not be afraid.”